Greeting Dear Ones,
It’s
been a while since I last visited this blog- sadly coming close to a year since
I last posted. I could make several excuses as to why I haven’t been
active over this period of time- the foundation of why is that I have been at a
loss over the months in 2023. I didn’t know what I wanted to do or where I was
headed. I have done things that I am not proud of, and I have not done things
that I should have. Either way, things are getting better and improving. With
that said, I wanted to give you a little life update and share what has been
going on with me and what is in store moving forward.
The
ending of 2022 was a little rough. I went through a massive spiral and was left
in a dark place. The spiral was of my own making, and I should have seen it coming.
It was one of those situations where I wanted to do something about it but just
couldn’t… I stopped interacting with the world completely. I don’t know if it
had anything to do with the fact that it was December and one of the roughest
winters we have had or not. I stopped watering the plants in the greenhouse,
stopped communicating with friends and felt like I was just going through the
motions most days. And that was if I even bothered to get out of bed for any
length of time. I was not doing well.
This was still in effect in January of
2023- though not as bad granted. I was starting to come out of it a little bit
more. I started getting back into sewing, finding friendships and the small
flame still there was starting to blossom into a new flame fueled by some newfound
passions. In January and February, I discovered a quickly growing new enjoyment
of something that I had been thinking about getting into. And from there, I
have had a new passion ignite. And while the struggles of finding my footing
with rituals and routines, the community I have found is inspiring and kind- to
things that I have discovered I needed.
While these communities happen to be
online and not in person, it hasn’t changed how I feel about the people I have met.
Now, there are ups and downs, gains and losses in these communities as there
would be in real life, which is a keen reminder that it isn’t some fantasy world
as some may see it. There friends I have made in these spaces will last a lifetime.
And its finally gotten me into Dungeons & Dragons, which is something that
I had been considering for a while. One of these online spaces is a D&D based
roleplay server- a space that has become a home away from home. And as it
happens, is run by an incredible person I have the pleasure of calling my
boyfriend.
Yep- B
has a boyfriend. Granted that he lives in Canada and our relationship is not
only online, but long distance at that. It hasn't made me feel like it’s any less
of a success. He is an incredible guy who sees the light peeking through the
cracks and encourages me in so many ways. When people talk about finding
someone you can be broken with, I feel like I got lucky. Maybe one day I will
introduce him to this space, but for now- he will remain the mystery behind the scenes.
Moving forward, things are going to
look a little different. You may have noticed the name change. While I loved
keeping the heritage going, I needed to find a name that could transition with
me in both real life and the online spaces I inhabit. I will share more about
the idea behind the name and what it will entail. I have been diving into sewing,
which has become my main hobby as well as my knitting. And, while I always
thought that I would share the homesteading, it is something that has kind of passed
out of being my primary focus. I will instead be sharing more of my history
bounding and cottage core simple living- which mirrors what I thought I wanted
in the homesteading life. There will still be chickens and gardens and kitchen
things, but I won’t be calling it homesteading or anything specific like that. I
plan on returning to the podcast, recording more episodes in the coming months,
and sharing more projects with you all. I will also be adding more fantasy and cosplay
material to the mix along with some D&D content.
I hope you will stick around and
continue to travel with me on this journey as things change dear ones. I can’t
wait to see what the future has in store and share it with all of you.
Cheers, B
